The worst thing about myself is that I make the worst mistakes just because I am hurt. I don’t do them for fun or whatever, but just because someone or something is hurting me baddly. And all that guilt makes the hurt and the emptiness I feel disappear for a while. And it’s the worst thing someone can do about themselves.
Usually, I would consider myself a bad person but now I know I do all these really stupid shit just because of my hurt, just because I am human. And sometimes all you can seem to do is lose control while discovering how to recover.
So if you’re like me and you kind of feel you lost yourself in mistakes, just remember sometimes it is all you can do and someone out there has done worse than you (it’s not the smartest thing to advice but you know).
Cheers to the human part of us, that sometimes sucks.
Do you ever look at someone and just pray to God you never have to lose them?
“Even a painful longing is some form of presence.”
Anna Kamienska, A Nest Of Quiet
“I want to be able to trust, not live in perpetual self-defense.”
Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 3: 1939-1944